I know it's Monday, and you were expecting your BOOPy goodness, but sweeties, sorry I didn't feel like it. In fact, to be honest, since you're my peeps, I've had the worst week, my heart hurts like f**k, and my usual perky self is not around.
Steph's inner badass feels beat. I should quickly mention too that even badasses are allowed weak moments. The badass is still human.
One of the biggest advantages of being a blogger over a journalist is the ability to tell your readers, "Yo, I don't feel like it today. I'm cranky and not feeling it." Try saying that to an Editor. And unlike celebrities who issue statements like, "We're doing strong and well." When we know they are not, I'm telling you what's real.
If you're dancing like sugar plums, kissing under mistle toe, and feeling joy to the world. Good for you and more power to you!
I'm in my cave. I'm not humbug so not to worry. I have therapist on speed dial in case, and I have mom and dad to shower me with their special love. I need to just be in the cave for awhile, so please bare with me. I do have Nog and Motown Christmas music, so I'm good. The best gift I can get right now is your patience, and the space to just be, so after this post I may or may not be back the rest of the week. I'll let you know tomorrow.
Over at The Everyday Blogger, I wrote about one thing weighing heavy on my heart, "How Using Social Media to Break News to Your Ex is a Bad Idea." It's about my Ex which yeah, I have not talked about him pretty much since, oh last year when we broke up. I posted on that blog instead of here because the context actually makes more sense there, and it helped me write the story without going completely Super Ex-Girlfriend.
Also, it's not just the Ex, that was more like the icing on the cake. There is a compilation of things. Indeed, times are tough and heavy for many of us. Welcome to one of my messy middle moments, those times between the Before and After of the success story. And when I look at my traffic stats, you guys like the messy middle stories and shower moi with a traffic spike. Thank you!
This is how we find the everyday "heal" in health. Sometimes we just have to hurt, and feel it, and go through the process. I think it is very healthy actually to say it and be with it. Don't get me wrong, I know I have so much to be grateful for, and I know this too shall pass. But, I'm sure even Gandhi and Mother Teresa had shitty days.
I read a quote the other day that said, "You seek specific problems because of the gifts they can bring you." I'm not seeing that at the moment, which is why I believe the universe reminded me, and in turn I'm reminding you.
For the first time in 3 years, I'm also going to close comments on this post, and on the Ex post because I want to try something new. Blog silence. I need to just express and honestly I don't have the emotional capacity for comments at the moment. So again, please not to worry, I'll be fine and thank you for your love and support :)
