Wednesday was the worst emotional day I have had since the break-up two weeks ago. I lost it in a monumentally huge way and spent half the day crying, screaming, and feeling the hatred/resentment stage coming on. I even destroyed some nick nacks in a fit of calamatious rage. I just had to literally break some things in order to vent. It all started when Matt told me that our former next door neighbor, Carrie (not her real name) was pregnant.
Now Carrie met this guy through her job and started dating him in February of this year. She moved in with him in May. They got engaged in June, and in August found out that she is pregnant. Carrie is on top of the moon, and blissfully happy. She met her soul mate and is just thrilled beyond belief. Now, I know (logically) that her relationship has happened at Superman speed and who knows if they will last because they really just met, but my emotions don't care about any of that logical stuff.
Oh no! All the emotions heard was "She's getting married to her soul mate and having a kid and living in a new house and you are not and you are 9 years older than her, you childless old spinster bag you who's just been dumped by your non-committal boyfriend of 3 years." Again, it's all insecure irrational break up emotion but that is what bubbled to the surface: my humanness.
The news of Carrie was then the tipping point to comparing myself to everyone else I know and what life changes they have experienced in the 3 years that Matt and I have been together.
Older women tend to out pace younger women in running races
When I started to run competitively, one of my training buddies told me that just because you're younger and have been running for years, don't be shocked to see someone 10-20 years older pass you by. Your ego won't get it, but trust me it will happen. And sure enough, when I started to race 5ks and 10ks it happened. In one race, someone who could be my granny sped by me like the Roadrunner, and yes, my ego was bruised because in theory I should have been faster than a AARP member. Youthful arrogance I tell ya!
The NY Times ran this interesting article, "See Jane Run. See Her Run Faster and Faster" where writer/runner Gina Kolata points out something that appears, on the surface, to be unusual in running races: older female runners tend to out pace time wise their younger counterparts. Gina shares her observations:
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Posted by Stephanie Quilao on Aug 31, 2007 in Skinny commentary & news | Permalink | Comments (4) | TrackBack (0)
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